came back from a chit chat session, had a rough weekend as usual.

saturday morning was spent in school for SEG club's Shoot-o event. quite a waste of time. we had to report at 930 when our match was at 1140. demoralised ben and the bunch, hahaha. luckily i didnt cab down. 

after our first match, which we lost 1-0. ben and the others decided to go home already -_- leaving me and bernard behind. since we couldnt do much, we just slacked around before leaving school at 1plus. 

i went to united sq to meet mum and bro to have lunch, ended up having pizza hut. hadn't eaten that in awhile, the new cheese thingy is kinda good. was supposed to meet wc to go town to collect my stuff but given how tired i was(you'll know how tired later), i decided that sunday was a better time to meet. and headed home. i fell asleep in the car, for dunno how long, and woke up to find that we've been home a long time and i've been left in the car to sleep -_- went up to nap, until i woke at around 7plus. dallied at home, complicated story, before i left for christina's chalet.

yea, though i reached late, as usual. we kinda had fun, though i was DS-ing all the time. we did have alot of laughs, hadn't stayed in a chalet for awhile now. 

i left the following day, at 2pm. and headed home. haven't even spent 30mins in my house before i had to go out again, brought my dog to the pets kafe opp my hse, stayed till 620, before rushing home and going out again. busy day. sigh.

met kurt kel and wc at cine to collect my mizuno wave run stuff. kinda ex. like 35bucks for a duffel bag(a bigger shoe bag -_-) and a singlet. nike run more worth it, gonna participate in it soon! 

was supposed to go SEG bbq, but after going to shop with them, lost the feel to go, it was 840 and i was still at The Cathay anyway. might as well don't waste time. so we headed to carl's junior after to slack, and chatted about loads of stuff till 1150. caught the last bus home.

had a heavy heart on the way back. i realised i had many, many flaws. which was frightening.. and i realised how rigid i was, so much for advocating change, i am the greatest contradiction of my own beliefs. the chat also made me realise that how much i don't trust people, and that i've treated friends as enemies, enemies as friends all this while.. i realised how big an impact i've had in people's lives, yet i treat them as normal friends. i'm sorry i've disappointed you guys.

i realised that i'm oversensitive most of the time, which results in the lack of trust, i hope i'll be able to overcome it.

having blog hopped, i was extremely touched after seeing ft's blog.

*extracted from her blog*

ft i know you'll read this, and thank you for holding me in such a high regard (:

i shall lenghten this already long post to thank all my friends. (no i'm not gonna commit suicide or what i just wanna thank them -_-)

jq - thank you for being there when i need someone to talk to always, when i talk to you about my new targets(LOL), when i'm emo, or just generally confused with life or about my friends. thank you.

cheryl - thank you so much for patronizing my blog, LOL. as well as caring for me when i'm done(sometimes, haha), though you always scold me and its kinda irritating, but thanks. haha.

kel - i know most prob kel won't read this at all, but thank you for all the effort you've put into a clueless guy like me. i must've caused you alot of trouble but i hope you'd understand.

wc - i just don't know how much i should apologize to you. but i'm so sorry. and thanks bro for treating me as a close friend.

bernard - well generally he's been an irritating fag since year1 (: but he's the nicest irritating fag i've met ever. poly life would've never been so interesting without you and the AB class. thank you for being my friend. HAHA.

there are many others, but because i'm currently not in the emo mood now i cant remember. 

lastly, to my beloved rajar group.

mei earlier sent a video to me, telling me its her presentation video, and told me to comment on it, suspecting nothing, i just watched it. the moment i saw the opening though, i knew it wasnt anything simple.

"the thing to remember when travelling the trail is that the trail is the thing, not the end. travel too fast and you miss all that you are travelling for"

those were the words of our OBS instructor the night before we left, being the forgetful person those words have slipped out of my brain, however, seeing them again brought back memories.

the video consisted of photos taken during our OBS trip, and seeing them brought back fond memories i'll treasure for life. i teared as i watched this, THANK YOU SO MUCH (:

i shall post the words of wisdom mei gave me here.

"many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way, we feel as though we are worthless, but no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value, you as special. HAPPY SNIFFING BIRTHDAY, PRESIDENT!! wish you all the very very best.. i'm sniffing :D

~wild boar~"