Wednesday, January 14, 2009

HURRAY! turns out i can blog during work. thats a relief.

anyway. bad start to the morning, woke up late, came late, kinda tired.

went back to school for training yesterday, its been awhile since i have.

not that training was any good, went there, enthused. and played scrimmage. but guess what.

i played a grand total of ONE point

yep you heard right, ONE POINT. 19 game points and i only played one.

seriously, how do they fucking hell expect me to 'step up' or 'improve' or 'get better' when i don't even get game time?

i WANT to improve, i HAVE to improve, but seriously i don't even get to play.

during the league i don't play much, during training i don't play much. seriously, do they expect me to go Pick Ups to improve? bloody shit.

the recent poll on nypultimate's blog doesnt help me either.

choose your IVP team of 2009.

seriously, do you think i think i'm good enough, to be thick skinned enough to vote for myself?

fuck, its like 14 males and 10 females, we have like 25 males for god's sake.

and they bloody hell choose themselves. i even have the luxury of leaving out Chris and Bryan because of lack of space. John as well.

seriously, i'm starting to think that 'fuck, i've trained for one year and graduated, i'm not playing in the IVP'

if thats the team they're gonna send, i can jolly well warm the seats in the stadium during IVP already.

train? train backside la. how to train when you don't play. they don't even choose your. !@#$%^&*$#.

one teeny bit of good news is that the youth squad trials are open to anyone born after 1988.

but seriously. 24 males? like the chances are any better. i don't even know if i'm beter than those SP bums. at least the SIM/NTU/SMU people are excluded. but its not like ACJC is invisible. or CJ. HC and Raffles as well.

in OUR nyp squad alone, there are already enough to fill 1/2 to 3/4 the team.

off hand, there's already like,
eliseus
doug
djamal
edwin
chris
john
alan

then maybe michael or wayne, though seriously i have confidence in being better than them at least. maybe alan and john as well.

thats already like, what, 8 confirmed? okay, the odds sound better already. but still. come on.

nvm, i shall train everyday till the 24th. then, at least i've tried my best. i will go, and play for my life.

hopefully training later is better. i don't wanna fall ill and get fever for a stupid reason like 'cuz i was standing in the field for 2hours doing nothing and there were strong winds blowing, so i fell ill'

RIGHT

anyways, back to work time. sigh. pray and hope for the best.

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