was ABOUT to start on telecomm.. then ended up chatting -_-

another eventful weekend, so happy. hahaha.

Climb-Run on sat morn, then i'll be heading to Sentosa to practise my disc throwing with fred and the others. make sure they can throw properly. hopefully i'll find another girl then poor yanying won't have to run throughout the whole tourny.

sunday.. is kinda empty. though i remembered i promised alihansen i'll call some of the BHS peeps and go out. we gotta see how about that..

ben mentioned there would be a male and female MVP disc. hehe, its mine already! LOL.

i'll definitely work hard for it though.. its some special disc afterall.. haha

gonna register for AHM soon. bloody nikerun dunno if i can still make it for the virtual race.

okay. tomorrow shall improve more on the blog. tired already. hope i'm not late for comm skills. zzz.

ciaos.

came back from a chit chat session, had a rough weekend as usual.

saturday morning was spent in school for SEG club's Shoot-o event. quite a waste of time. we had to report at 930 when our match was at 1140. demoralised ben and the bunch, hahaha. luckily i didnt cab down. 

after our first match, which we lost 1-0. ben and the others decided to go home already -_- leaving me and bernard behind. since we couldnt do much, we just slacked around before leaving school at 1plus. 

i went to united sq to meet mum and bro to have lunch, ended up having pizza hut. hadn't eaten that in awhile, the new cheese thingy is kinda good. was supposed to meet wc to go town to collect my stuff but given how tired i was(you'll know how tired later), i decided that sunday was a better time to meet. and headed home. i fell asleep in the car, for dunno how long, and woke up to find that we've been home a long time and i've been left in the car to sleep -_- went up to nap, until i woke at around 7plus. dallied at home, complicated story, before i left for christina's chalet.

yea, though i reached late, as usual. we kinda had fun, though i was DS-ing all the time. we did have alot of laughs, hadn't stayed in a chalet for awhile now. 

i left the following day, at 2pm. and headed home. haven't even spent 30mins in my house before i had to go out again, brought my dog to the pets kafe opp my hse, stayed till 620, before rushing home and going out again. busy day. sigh.

met kurt kel and wc at cine to collect my mizuno wave run stuff. kinda ex. like 35bucks for a duffel bag(a bigger shoe bag -_-) and a singlet. nike run more worth it, gonna participate in it soon! 

was supposed to go SEG bbq, but after going to shop with them, lost the feel to go, it was 840 and i was still at The Cathay anyway. might as well don't waste time. so we headed to carl's junior after to slack, and chatted about loads of stuff till 1150. caught the last bus home.

had a heavy heart on the way back. i realised i had many, many flaws. which was frightening.. and i realised how rigid i was, so much for advocating change, i am the greatest contradiction of my own beliefs. the chat also made me realise that how much i don't trust people, and that i've treated friends as enemies, enemies as friends all this while.. i realised how big an impact i've had in people's lives, yet i treat them as normal friends. i'm sorry i've disappointed you guys.

i realised that i'm oversensitive most of the time, which results in the lack of trust, i hope i'll be able to overcome it.

having blog hopped, i was extremely touched after seeing ft's blog.

*extracted from her blog*

ft i know you'll read this, and thank you for holding me in such a high regard (:

i shall lenghten this already long post to thank all my friends. (no i'm not gonna commit suicide or what i just wanna thank them -_-)

jq - thank you for being there when i need someone to talk to always, when i talk to you about my new targets(LOL), when i'm emo, or just generally confused with life or about my friends. thank you.

cheryl - thank you so much for patronizing my blog, LOL. as well as caring for me when i'm done(sometimes, haha), though you always scold me and its kinda irritating, but thanks. haha.

kel - i know most prob kel won't read this at all, but thank you for all the effort you've put into a clueless guy like me. i must've caused you alot of trouble but i hope you'd understand.

wc - i just don't know how much i should apologize to you. but i'm so sorry. and thanks bro for treating me as a close friend.

bernard - well generally he's been an irritating fag since year1 (: but he's the nicest irritating fag i've met ever. poly life would've never been so interesting without you and the AB class. thank you for being my friend. HAHA.

there are many others, but because i'm currently not in the emo mood now i cant remember. 

lastly, to my beloved rajar group.

mei earlier sent a video to me, telling me its her presentation video, and told me to comment on it, suspecting nothing, i just watched it. the moment i saw the opening though, i knew it wasnt anything simple.

"the thing to remember when travelling the trail is that the trail is the thing, not the end. travel too fast and you miss all that you are travelling for"

those were the words of our OBS instructor the night before we left, being the forgetful person those words have slipped out of my brain, however, seeing them again brought back memories.

the video consisted of photos taken during our OBS trip, and seeing them brought back fond memories i'll treasure for life. i teared as i watched this, THANK YOU SO MUCH (:

i shall post the words of wisdom mei gave me here.

"many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way, we feel as though we are worthless, but no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value, you as special. HAPPY SNIFFING BIRTHDAY, PRESIDENT!! wish you all the very very best.. i'm sniffing :D

~wild boar~"

shall talk about napfa and youthcube tomorrow.

short post to vent my anger abit.

*extracted from a sonnovabitch's blog*

that fucking son of a bitch. you think i go for training twice a week for nothing? cb i should be the one banging the wall if I lose alot to that fucking asshole, half the time sitting at home and playing games and chiong anime, cb, still think he fitter than me. !@^&*&^%$#@!@#$. its official that i think he's a complete ass/bastard.

this has only made me more determined to get napfa gold. once i get napfa gold i'm so rubbing it into his FUCKING FACE EVERYDAY. son of a bitch. spoil my day. 

and he thinks that he tel comm get B big shot already. everytime got chance to say then rub it in my face. please, as if you're the smartest ass in the class. don't know who's RF and WMCOMM lousier than me lor. after RF paper people still so confident sia, say sure can score, end up also lose to me. WMCOMM also. i find no pride in comparing D+ and F. but some fucking idiot thinks he get B only big shot, so i have no choice but to rub it in his ass. loser. still wanna compare commskills. go brush up your fucking english first then come find me la you fucking pussy. 

grrrr. such people are a waste of oxygen on earth. ask him go fuck wall better. its a pity joyce had the misfortune to be with him once. don't know which blind/mute/deaf girl like him sia. they prolly tink he LOOKS like andy lau or something. i can tell you he has only one similarity with andy lau, its that he is LAO. fucking uncle. zzz. RARR. hope he go attachment faster so i don't need to see his fucking face anymore. its my dumbest thing to do to call him brother. brother my ASS AH.

okay, end of post. hope he breaks a leg or something so i don't see his face soon. thanks god.

ciaos people. update again soon.

yes its my 19th birthday today! yay.

well alot of things happened today. as usual its getting late so i'll elaborate tomorrow when i actually have the time. decided to change my blog add because it was getting.. too public. please, don't spread the address thank you.

i shall upload the birthday dinner photos soon.

youthcube tomorrow, haiz, somehow i'm not very enthused. NAPFA too. though i cannot pass pullups. gotta train soon. frisbee training too, i'm in severe need of extra training, so that i'll be better.

sleeping. ciaos.

alot of things happened, as usual, given its me. sorry i haven't been updating for those who bothers to read what happens in my life. thank you so much. lol

things haven been going very well these days. might be just me thinking too much or something. but still.. life really has been quite sucky.

i'll blog again once i'm feeling much better.

a list of events for this busy july.

12thjuly - final theory test, kbox-ing

13thjuly - possible raja outing/my own early birthday private bbq.

16th july - youth cube, napfa, and my birthday, lol

19thjuly - SEG club/class bbq

20thjuly - i dunno got what, somehow i have a feeling something is on, really

21st july - hmmm.. something is on today too, memory getting really bad..

26thjuly - SEG soccer competition, might be joining

27thjuly - mizuno wave run, i might be joining.

30thjuly - Ultimate Frisbee Carnival!

okay, that concludes my really busy month. exams are not that far away too. 20smth august. stuff really coming at me all at one go. need more sleep. zzz. going to talk on the phone to de-emo now. haha. yes, don't gimme the -_- face. ciaos people. will update soon.

once again i kinda lost track of the events that happened, given i'm so damn busy everyday.

oh yea, i kinda remembered that i had a hectic weekend. haha. yes yes.

monday was first day of school, as well as the day of the euro finals. i know its abit late but SPAIN WON LA! haha. though only 1-0. but the sucky part of it was that i woke at 1030am -_- and class was at 9am. so much for 'waking up earlier and reaching at 830 to prove LIMKY wrong.' zzz. nvm. NEXT WEEK. wipe that smug look off her face. rarr. hahaha.

had a kinda dead day on mon. because i was very tired, somehow. and i had to stay in school for 4 extra hours for poly forum meeting, which turned out to be nothing much -_- heng vovi say i can go already, if not i think i'll be staying till 9pm.

wasn't any better on mon night/tue morning, chatted with someone till nearly6am on the phone, since 1plus am somemore. almost 4hours la. walao. lol. but WELL.. got topic is likethat one. talked about alot, which kinda cleared up my mind. and it seems like i cant trust certain people entirely now.

surprisingly though i wasn't extremely late for class, reached at 1015am? bus was kind. and the short day in school helped as well, though not the nearly 5hour wait for training -_-

thankfully i had to accompany cheryl of sorts. which i didnt, in the end, because she was being irritating as usual -p and was in a rush to go home to shower. xingxuan brought clothes to train for climbrun though, and i went jogging with her instead, thankfully giving me something to do.

surprisingly one round around the school, which seemed like hell during biathlon, was kinda like a breeze. maybe the 10hr/day sleep times during holiday helped. because running was hell during today's training after 3hrs of sleep last night -_-

anyway, training today and yesterday was kinda boring, ben says we gotta work on our tactical aspect. well i guess. kinda improved on my forehand, but its inconsistent, NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT. more practice is definitely needed. maybe i'll get a girl from the juniors to accompany me play.. heh. LOL.

been playing monster hunter 2nd G these days, felynes are like so adorable. haha. especially when they are meditating. omg. haha. 

read about this blog list thingy on blogger just now. seems kinda cool. but the entire layout now has to be changed. so i kinda hesitated. shall do more research soon.

okay. its 147am now. 8am class tomorrow. like bloody hell. time to sleep. ciaos people.

*extra-gotta-say-out note: some bloody idiot lecturer decided that its very fun to put my napfa test date on 16thjuly. like bloody hell la. as if not busy enough on that day. rarr. asshole.